This week has been filled with many highs and lows. The intense training that I am getting before I transition into my thirties has me on an unexplainable roller coaster. Last night, I realized something very important while whining down for bed...and I didn't hear this from my mind and I know it didn't come from emotions. It came straight from my heart. When it gets dark and your eyes doesn't do you any good, listen to your heart. Yesterday around 11am, I went into a deep meditation and prayer. Everything that I was feeling, I had to document. As the month of February comes to an end, I really was able to do a lot of self and inner evaluation. I wrote an amazing post about Heart Issues earlier this month and instantly began to work on me being WHOLE. Externally, I am there. But the closer I get to my Creator and the more I love on Him, the more I realize I need Him everyday. I surprise myself sometimes at what I think and even some of the things I do. Well, right before I began my day, I heard a soft whisper stating, "You are leaving the first trimester of your life." And in that moment, I understood all of the cleansing and therapeutic things I have been doing since the inception of 2011.
My 10s, 20s, 30s - First Trimester
Anyone that has ever carried a baby understands that the first trimester is the most vital. A lot of women wait to tell family and friends that they are carrying just to ensure that everything goes right. With my pregnancies, my first trimester wasn't very comfortable. I was nauseous, couldn't eat, and when I did eat I could only eat two bites. It was awful until I figured out what to do--to NOT be sick. The procreation process is easy, but the development and the growth of that human being is a miracle. Even with all the research and data to support the development of a baby in a mother's womb, no human has the ability to fathom the process and the HOW. While pregnant, I was mindful that as long as I fed my seed and didn’t do anything crazy, that seed would grow into a baby. My only part was to carry it. I understood that I had no part in it developing legs, arms, a nose, ears and a mouth. And what is so amazing is the fact that at six weeks (normally when most women find out that they are pregnant), that being has no lungs, no brain, or no emotions but it has a HEART and that heart beats...
I instantly thought about my growth as a woman. I will admit because of how I am wired the very same queasiness I experienced throughout my life became easier to control once I knew what to do. But throughout everything that I have went through, I got to this point-->and that was to grow.
It is embedded in my DNA to be an analytical person. So I am the one that has to be clear about everything! Sometimes I think and wonder and research so much, I get headaches. I confuse myself when I allow my feelings and emotions to run amuck! But when I sit down and listen to hear what my heart is saying, I am never lead astray. My breakthrough came this week, when I realized that even through all of the noise in the world, I still have that still small voice speaking to me. Leading me in the direction I should follow. For most of my teens and twenties, I couldn't hear it because I was influenced by external forces. However, in these last three years, I have been renewed. I am more powerful now then I have ever been. And it's only because I understand that I should listen to my heart. It’s because I realize some things really don’t matter. It’s because I know I am powerful, confident, and bold. When people used to say, you must KNOW WHO YOU ARE, I didn’t get it…but now I do and what I learned in two months, I spent most of my life searching for.
Did you now that the word ear is right smack dap in the middle of heart and hear? It was essential for me to grasp that I live in a body, I posses a soul, but I am spirit. And I must constantly be aware of that to lead a prosperous fulfilling life. Now that I get it, I am ready to gracefully move into the next level of me. This was my spiritual evolution.
Excerpt taken from Corporate Chics, the Novel
Chapter 10 - Graduate
"My Reality course wasn't as difficult as I thought it would be. Reality is actual truth. Ear is in the middle of the word heart and "hear" makes up the word in its entirety. Our hearts are always spoken to and guided but it is up to each of us to know when we are being spoken too. My mind was cloudy and my heart was full of fog. In this instance, I wasn't able to clearly hear. Once I came to realize my faults, errors, and other people's motives I understood that I ignored everything I was told not to do. That is why this class is not hard at all; it's all about learning to become in tune with you. All of life's answers lie within but we must nourish our inner man with positive, helpful, and affirmative applications. It's the only way to pass." {Tawana Necole, Author)
3 comments:
Woo, girl, welcome to your POWER! I had this very same transition when I turned 30. It was the best life changing experience ever. Like you my teens had a lot of external forces. I am always thankful for The Creator never letting me fall completely away, by letting me see that there is so much more to who I am. I too remember the day when I accepted that I am spirit first. From that moment on I decided that everything else that did not matter would no longer get my power, I will operate in spirit. I just turned 37 last month. The reflection from half of this decade brings me tears of joy. If I could hug you right now I would. I love it when women stop, listen, take notice, and accept the real, truthful reason for their power. It only gets better..... <3
I felt every word you typed. Here is my hug and Hi-5! Thank you sooo much for the confirmation (I thought I was going crazy!)-->just playing but that transition is a little scary. And meeting people like you along the way just helps me to believe that EVERY thing is for and by Divine appointment.So grateful that I met you....thank you for your words of empowerment and encouragement. I needed it.
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